How long will you be here? Haven’t you left yet? The real question is “Are we ever leaving Denver?”
Short answer: I hope so, but we are still here, I can’t seem to get much farther
So we had to leave our RV in Kansas, get a new tire for our jeep and head to Denver… and we made it! Although I was a nervous wreck by the time we arrived. I felt like I was “frozen”. Frozen with stress, grief, nerves, and so much more. Our RV repair is going to cost a pretty penny and the rent on our house is behind. That combined with the fact that I finally had a chance to check my credit card statements are there are mysterious (fraudulent) charges on all of them, I was a bit of a mess.
The weekend came and I started to “thaw”. I talked with some good friends, and talked with a million encouraging people at Church on Sunday and started to feel a lot better (like maybe I can keep going)
So there are a million reasons I should stay but I decided to continue for these reasons: Staying won’t solve my problems, even my financial ones, and the sooner I come home the sooner I have to figure my life out.
Yes I took a road trip – but not with my kids. I took a road trip with a friend of mine to pick up the RV and come back. To get to the west coast from Kansas, we would have to drive through Denver anyway, so why not drop the kids off and have a girls weekend? Maybe not a traditional girls weekend, but a night and 2 days without the kids. It was awesome and much needed for both of us. We would have gone an extra day except that we were worried about our children.
I got back from the trip, got in the driveway, got parked…..AND THE RV DIED! Yes it died. Like I start it and it dies. Ughhhhhh. I called all day on Saturday for a mobile mechanic to come out but although there are a million of them, they don’t work for different reasons. I called today (again) and found someone who can come out on Wednesday and I’m quite encouraged by this. He might even fix it. It might even not be several thousand dollars. So we were going to leave last Thursday and the new plan is to leave this Thursday (although no guarantees)
One of my kids said “maybe God doesn’t want us to finish the trip” but I said that in the Garden of Eden, the snake said to Eve “did God really say that?” and I know that God gave us the blessing of the whole trip (until April). Maybe it won’t work, maybe it will, but I’m bound and determined to do this, even if this is super painful and everything goes wrong. I’ve been stretched so far I’m not even sure if I’ve snapped.
Heading to the Pacific Northwest
If you are in Washington or Oregon let me know if you want to see us (if I haven’t talked to you ). I might not be able to, but maybe! Let me know!
- I have plenty of people to take care of us in Denver
- I got a girls “weekend” with a friend (haven’t had one of those since before Adam died)
- The RV broke down right when I parked and not on the road
- I’ve had some time to work on the business of being a person (like calling credit card companies) and 3 months worth of stuff like that
- I’ve also had some alone time which has been horrible since I keep myself busy for a reason (apparently) so as to not think about things that are tough. But alone time is good for anyone, especially for someone who tends to be addicted to distractions.
I totally published this before I had Harmony write her corner, so the next post will be all her! (I’ll entitle it part 2 so you know which post it is)